Wonder what happen.

So I was cleaning up my desk recently and stumbled upon a poem I made a long time ago. And what struck me about it was how... sad it sounded? Here, take a look at it.

The Girl In The Mirror

Mirror mirror, on the wall,

Who is that girl that stands so tall?

Mirror mirror, on the wall,

Who is that girl with tears that fall?

I see her smile, I see her laugh,

From afar, she seems so tough,

So together and always intact,

Doesn't her life seem so perfect?

Always surrounded by all her friends,

She's also ahead the latest trends,

Fun, Friendly and Miss Popular,

Don't you wish you could be her?

But wait- stop, and take a look..

Remember to not judge the cover of a book,

Have you not seen her tear-stained eyes?

Have you not heard her silent cries?

She hides in her room when there's people around,

So no one will hear her make a sound,

For she cries at night to let out the pain,

That causes her tears to pour like rain

Despite the size of her place,

She suffocates in that huge space,

Alone and lonely but no one knows,

The misery she feels that grows and grows..

Depressed and pressured for their hearts are like stone,

Can't they just leave her alone?

I guess they don't know how she feels,

Let her be, and maybe she'll heal

So tell me mirror on the wall,

Who is that girl with tears that fall?

I touch the reflection that I see,

And realized that girl starring back, is me...

So yeah, pretty depressing huh? I wonder what situation was I in last time to write such a miserable poem. Well, whatever it was, I'm glad that phase is over. After all, who wants to spend time being sad when you can be happy instead? :) This message implies to everyone out there. Our existence in this world is short. Treasure it, and be happy. For every second being sad, is a second wasted. 

"Happiness often comes sneaking in through a door you didn't know you left open"

p/s : on my next post, I'll FINALLY blog about the Miko story part #2. For those who didn't read the first part, click this link HERE. And I'll also give updates on my Book Sale :D till next time, xoxo--

ATTENTION STUDENTS!

Meet Nerdtasha. She is in a dilemma. Exams are just around the corner, but alas, she has no revision books to use. I mean, we all know the best and ultimate way to prepare for an exam is to do some exercises, right? Well, too bad she has no more revision books left. (Being the nerd she is, she finished using all her revision books in the last exam) OMG! THIS IS A FREAKING CALAMITY!!

Well, fear not Nerdtasha! We have a solution for you! Haven't you heard? There is a BOOK SALE going on right now. Yes, a Book Sale! Not any ordinary Book Sale. This Book Sale specializes only on revision/exercise books only. Specifically, form 4 and form 5 subjects.

Nerdtasha : snort snort! are you serious???

YES! We are very serious! Not only that, here is the BEST part : All the books are selling at FREAKING CHEAP-CHEAP prices. We're talking about RM3/RM4-ish here! That's cheap! Plus, you get to choose from alot-ta subjects. This is Nerdtasha's dream come truueee~

 

Nerdtasha : Aww.. zhank you! zhi like this zho much!

You're welcome Nerdtasha! Its all in a days work to help out a soon-to-be SPM candidate like yourself. Now, wouldn't you readers like to be as lucky as Nerdtasha? Yes? Yes? ..............Great! Then here you go, the details about this amazing Book Sale!!

THE AMAZING BOOK SALE

As a high school graduate, I have collected a small HUGE-ASS pile of revision/exercise books throughout the years. However, I have this habit of not actually writing my answers in the book. Instead, I look at the questions in the book and write the answers on another piece of paper. Why? so that I can reuse the book again. But now that I'm out of high school, I realized that most of my books are all very clean and untouched!! Very sayang to throw away hor? -__- So an idea came across, why now, sell them instead?! Of course, I will now sell them WAAAAAAAAAYYYY cheaper than its original price so you guys who are buying it will VERY untung man! Like up to 60% or 70% its original price! :D

Time   : 10am  -  4.30pm

Place   : My house! Just ring the bell and I'll open

Subjects : ALOT! But if you really wanna know, drop a comment below and I'll answer

Form  : Form 4 and Form 5 (but I'm also selling some PMR books)

omg seriously, this is alot of books you know

Just remind you all again, the prices are so cheap I would cry tears of joy if I were a form4/form5 student. Why go to POPULAR bookstore when I'm selling almost similar books with a lower price? xD Save money, buy here!

                          - FORM 4 SUBJECTS -              

- FORM 5 SUBJECTS -

                                                                                             - SPM MODEL PAPERS -

So yeah, please buy from this AMAZING BOOK SALE. I mean seriously, its super worth it. Berquality dan murah! Grab this opportunity and purchase as many books as you can. Cause honestly, its so hard to find revision books with cheap prices this days... Honestly. In any other bookstore, RM10 will hardly get you two books. In this booksale, RM10 can even get you three books. #serioustalk

So buy, buy, buy!!! Or die. Heheheh jk jk. But seriously, start buying! May you have great results in every exam you take! God bless you :)

Nerdtasha : I am soo happy now!

p/s any questions just drop me a comment below, and I'll answer!

GOTCHA!

I KNOW I SO LALA (-__-)V

Hey look I have long hair up there!! Oh right, old photo. Anywaaaaaaayyy, today I decided to blog about THE EVENTFUL DAY (6/12/11). The day I went out for a super fun outing with my buddys (Sofea, Amelia and Dee) and the day I got Gotcha'ed my Ean. Actually, the day started pretty normal enough this outing already had problems since the night before. Everyone has transport problems and the outing almost got cancelled. Luckily, things got sorted out by the two so-called orang tengah's Sofea and I! We slept late sorting things out, but it was worth it =)

Anyway, on the morning of the outing, more problems came up! The plan was for Dee to come to my house by 9am where my dad will drive us both to Sunway Piramid. But then. JENG JENG JENG. She didn't come. As the minutes flew by, I kept looking at the watch, 10 minutes late... 20 minutes late.. I started to panic. I called Dee's phone but she didn't pick up! O M G! I called the other orang tengah Sofea and told her that Dee was not here yet. "Do you think she got..... kidnapped?" Some bad guys could have captured her along the way and do "nasty" things to her. My imagination went on over-drive mode.

Fear not! To cut the long story short, after a million calls to Dee, she finally picked up! Turns out, she was sleeping all along. Very anti-climatic, Dee xD My dad and I drove to her house and picked her up and we were off to Sunway! Once we reached there, Dee and I were earlier than Sof and Amy so we went around and did some window shopping. What to do? Didn't bring enough money to go mega shopping. Sobs.

Later on, Sof and Amy join us and we all decided to go skating!! Hahah actually it was more of me and Sof's idea.  Amy and Dee don't really like skating. TEE HEE! But this is the part I got......

 gotcha'ed! -_____- 

we were about to buy the tickets for the skating rink when suddenly... my phone started ringing. I looked at the screen. PRIVATE NUMBER? Oooh, that made me more curious so I answered. Okay, honestly I can't really described what the person on the line said, he talked waaaaayyy to fast and I couldn't hear a word he said. The reception was so bad in the skating place!

So yeah, needless to say, the beginning of our conversation consist alot of me saying huh? okaaayy? yeahh.. uh-huh.. right? That sorta thing! I must have sounded sho stupid!! But anyway, later on, I could hear certain words like dentist, braces, teeth and I could make out what message this person was trying to get through. He said I have to put on my braces again!! FOR ONE YEAR WOR. (so sad, I just took off my braces the day before this outing) But halfway through the gotcha, I SUDDENLY feel like I recognize the voice on the line. I hear it every morning xD Souds like one of 'em Hitz.fm guys! So I said, is this a gotcha call? and the person replied 

"Young lady, this is not a gotcha call. I have no time for jokes okay. 

This is a serious matter for your own good so please be seroius"

O.O Talk about fierce! Hahaha so I said, okay.. sorry. Anyway I guess words can never really describe something in full detail. You sould hear the gotcha call for yourself! 

Click this link HERE!!! 

To my friends who had to wait for me for so long on the phone, sorry ya guys.. :) but we were all so shocked when we knew it was a gotcha call! I'M SO GONNA GET BACK AT MY DAD FOR THIS! HE BETTER WATCH OUT. YOU, PA, READING THIS, WATCH OUT.

After that, we went skating. There's this photographer guy who approached me and Amy on the rink and asked if we wanted out photos taken B-)  I know, we so cool right? LOL. We went hyper in the middle of the rink and took so many shots,  like a boss! hahar. But buying the photos took alotta money. But being the cool people we are, we bought the photos, like a boss! Ok ok, enough like-a-boss jokes -.-

P/s- I just realized something, just because our whole group consists of GIRLS. Every where we go, all the shops where the staff are guys they will always be very chatty with us. Flirty and smiley and all that sorta things xD Better service, eh? Also, they will always say "come again, okay???" when we all wanna leave. Awww, we do feel flattered xD

After skating we went watch movie, jalan-jalan at Asian Avenue (cos we're asians) found out that our beloved photo booth not there anymore. WHAT THE- whhhhhyyyyyyyyyy?! D: *cue dramatic music* anyway, we also bought a cat necklace :3 okay, that's a quick summary of what happen. To cut it short, it was a very enjoyable day! I had so much fun! Can't wait for the next outing we'll have :D January maybe? eheheh.

On that note, imma end my post now with a warning.. to my dad.. you're next.=D

Braces.

As my vision cleared itself from the post-waking up blurriness, I lazily reached for my phone and checked the time. Still morning. And then, OMG IT HIT ME! Today is Monday. The Monday I've been waiting for.. I can't believe 2 years have flown so fast. It was time! It was finally time to remove that metal in my mouth.  How did I feel exactly? I don't know, totally mixed up. Maybe a spoonful of happiness, a dash of excitement, a hint of nostalgia and a pinch of.. sadness? There you go, a recipe of how I felt that morning. 

I can't really explain why I felt that way, just a few nights before I was so excited that I was practically spamming Facebook with "I AM REMOVING MY BRACES" type of posts. And now that it was actually time to remove it, I suddenly feel all sentimental.

Braces and I. We've had a rough relationship. Pretty love-hate if I could say so myself. I remember the numerous times the Mr.Braces physically abused me! Its sharp metallic body causing my tender and alluring (perasan) lips to tears and bleed. Or! The time my tongue got stuck at one of its hooks, and the process of separating them was needless to say, painful! Mr.Braces also abused me emotionally. I remember numerous occasions where I felt rather insecure wearing braces. Thoughts like "Do I look ugly?" or "Dammit, I bet that stupid rice is stuck on my braces again." constantly run through my mind. Heck, I'm sure my friends suffered just as much as I did! Especially after recess sessions xD

[This is a common scenario that happens EVERY recess session]

Me : Guys, got something on my braces anot?! *huge-ass grin that shows my braces*

Friend : *check and check and answers*

Me : Thanks weih!

Thanks peeps, the ones who's always there to help me with my paranoia that some random piece of food is stuck on my braces. You know who you are guys.. =)

Then again, Mr.Braces also helped me alot in my growing up process. I feel that, I've grown up alot this past two years and I've come to understand myself, my friends and my family a whole lot more. Mr.Braces was there to witness this.. this.. this Evolution Of Natasha. He even made me more confident in myself. I used to by shy wearing braces and all, but not anymore. Hey! Even a gotcha call on Hitz.fm recently was about my braces. Garhh! I just can't escape from Mr.Braces. So, I can't believe i'm saying this but... I'm gonna miss ya, Braces =)

The walk I encountered 2 years back. How nostalgic =(

-2 hours later-

My braces is off!! AND IT FEELS SO WEIRD. Its like, my mouth is so slippery smooth and no more obstacles on my teeth. I feel, I feel, I feel, weird! xD But the moment of truth, after the 2 hours "operation" was over, I thanked my dentist one last time, and rushed to the toilet. I looked at my reflection and I felt.... weird! Hahaha you see, I've grown so used to seeing my bracey smile this past 2 years that now when I look at my reflection, I feel like something is missing. HAHAH STRANGE HOR?

 

The new braces-less smile. KA-CHING!

So yeah, I'm ready to start my new life. After high school, after braces, after uniforms, after alot of things. Its a new start, and I'm planning to make it the best I can =) 

p/s - click HERE to read about my post the day I PUT ON braces xD

That one special male in my life

He comes running to me everytime  I call him. He's always there when I need someone to cuddle. I can spend hours just watching him and his beautiful eyes. I love how loyal he is, to run to me even in the rain. I love that patch of mischievous-ness that twinkles in his eyes every time I see him. There's no other like him. There's nobody that can ever be like him. And now, he's gone.

Miko, I miss you so much.

My beautiful, adorable, loving little rabbit! Why did you have to get lost, why??? WHY?! Memories of you and I keep running through my mind, eventhough its been months since you went away. I will always remember you. Always.

It was early this year when you arrived to this household. The day you arrived.. I still remember how tiny you were. So cute I wanted to pinch you till you die! (not really). It wasn't long after we bought you a little female rabbit to keep you company. I still remember how our family thought Bobby was a male and YOU were the female. (Hence, the name Bobby for the female rabbit). It was one day when we saw you mounting on Bobby and giving her a lots of "action" that we knew you were actually the male and she, the female xD

Still, the bond between you and our family grew stronger and stronger as time past. I never knew a more "manja" rabbit then you! But then again, I never knew a rabbit who had bigger testicles than you either 0.0 Maybe that's why you like mating so much.. Oh well...

good shot of those balls here B-)

The day he went missing, I would have never expected it. I usually let my rabbits run about my garden during the day and keep them back in the cage at night. So that day, as usual, we let them out. But by evening when it was time to keep them back in the cage, Miko was nowhere to be found. 

He escaped through that tiny hole at the edge of the gate. Hence, the Great Search begun. There we where, my maid, Danny and I together with our torch lights and cap (it was raining) walking around the neighbourhood shouting MIKO! MIKO! at the top of our lungs at night. It was cold and dark, but I was getting desperate. I shine the torch lights everywhere! Drains, shrubs, neighbours house, but Miko was well and truly... lost. We ended the search when it got too late.

That night itself, I went and printed those "Missing person" type of poster for Miko. Next morning, Danny and I distributed it around p8, with hopes someone will return Miko to us. Well, weeks past... and no news of Miko still. I gave up hope. Is Miko lying dead in a drain somewhere? Is he in some wild dogs stomach? Is he in some random strangers house right now? I guess I'll never know.

BUT FEW WEEKS LATER, SOMETHING HAPPEN. SOMETHING WEIRD. 

-to be continued-